Tooshieisback77

I have been MIA from this site for quite a while now.  Alot has happened.  We bought our first home, worked on it, moved in.  The town we moved to is a SMALL and out in the middle of nowhere type of place.  The only internet I could get was dial up or through satellite.  Being that we just bought this place, we were trying to cut back and save some $$$.  Finally, I had enough. No more living in the dak ages…. I NEED my connection to the rest of the world.  I broke down and bought a lap top and I can get wireless internet. YAY.

Sooooo……you’d think that being a homeowner would bring me some happiness. Of course it does but it comes with alot of responsibility.  I am not really liking the fact that I live in BFE either.  I LOVE the house but the town is something to be desired.  Nothing against the Amish at all, but I am surrounded by horse and buggies all over the place.  I am a city girl. Love the city because all my life I grew up in the corn and sticks. When I finally got to the city, I said I was never going back. Well, here I am. 

I am just gonna be brutally honest here.  One of my old buddies on here will say DRINK if she reads this. *Inside joke*

Anyway, I have struggled with depression for a long time now.  It seemed to be at bay when I started in 2007 to lose weight and eat right. I felt great. I lost 50 some lbs and never felt better.  Well depression just kind of took me over for several months. I have gained most all my weight back.  I hated myself and just wasn’t the “me” inside or out that I use to be.  I was so lost in the darkness that one day I tried to take my own life.  That makes my stomach hurt to even think, type, or say that.  I am not here to air my dirty laundry all over the place but I feel I need to get everything out so I can try to move on with my life and start over.  I am not sure I will be able to get back to the old me.  I desperately want to be healthy and happy.  So I have to be real and stop lying to myself.  I need to do this but do it at a pace I can keep up with.  The last time, I couldn’t keep up with myself anymore. So here I am yet again weighing 184 lbs having been 138 lbs in 2007.  I can use all the support I can get. I will give all the support back that I can give.

This is a hard road and it is a never ending one.  Good luck to you all!

Tasha

I am sitting here bidding on a few things for the new house.  Well, I am watching a few things right now that I want for one of the kid’s bedrooms.  Don’t you just love the trill you get when you swoop in at the last minute and win the item you have been watching for 5 days?!?!?!

Well, I know I get a thrill out of it!  Wait, maybe that means I have a BORING life.  Heck no! It means I love to buy things on EBAY! ;)  No really, I don’t buy things off of ebay very often.   I just thought it might be a good way to get some cute things for the house at a good price.  I have learned that sometime you have to wait until the last minute to get what you want on there. So, I am sitting here with 15 mins left on something.  I am gonna place my bid at the last minute!  Aren’t I they sneaky one?

This blog is kinda silly but then again, I feel kinda silly today.  I am in a mood.  A good one that is.  I feel like a lil school girl.  I got a friend back in my life that I was missing, have a new home to work on, my kids are behaving today. Life feels pretty good at the moment.

Well, wish me luck on getting my item on ebay!

Hey buddies.  Well, today was my first day back on plan 100% for a while. I must admit, I missed feeling in control. I like being “on track”. If only I could remember that when I fall of the wagon!

Well, I just wanted to post a short blog before calling it a night.  Today I got in my workout and stayed OP. I even sweat some more while we were out at the new house. Lots and lots of cleaning going on there.  No one has lived in this house for over a year so you can only imagine all the cobwebs and dust. Oh yeah., there are about 25 windows in this house too!  I cleaned most of them tonight inside and out! If that doesn’t make a girl sweat, nothing will!  It is coming along pretty well.  Almost time to start painting!

Well, Today=a very good day for me!  I hope you are all doing well too.  Keep up the good fight and take care of YOU!

Tasha

I am having all kinds of emotions lately.  We are about to become first time homeowners.  (Well we will know for sure later today but it is pretty much a done deal.)  I am excited to be moving into a home of my own for the first time. I am nervous. I am all over the place.  My kids will have to go to a new school which is kinda scarey. I think I am just as scared as my 8 year old daughter is about that. I am not letting her know that though.  The house needs  a little TLC but I like to do those kind of things. My sister in law is pretty much Martha Stewart junior so she wants to help with that stuff too.

 Anyway, I am a little worried about how this will affect my diet and exercise.  I will want  to be painting and cleaning and all that rather than exercising.  I know I still need to make the time for it though. I am going into it with the right attitude though.  Maybe I can count all the cleaning and work as exercise, huh? LOL.  Not sure exactly when we will be moving. Should be in the next few weeks so until then I will do what I need to do and not really worry about it.  We are moving 15 mins outside of the town we live in right now.  We will be in “the country”.  I am not sure if I am going to keep my YMCA membership or not.  I know 15 mins isn’t much but with gas prices and what not……well, you know what I mean.  I am thinking I might buy a good used treadmill and workout at home.  I also have all the WATP dvd’s too. I have some weights also.  Who knows where I will end up!

Anyway, I wanted to share the good news with my buddies here.

Oh yeah, one more thing. I did decide to join a team.  Thanks to Angela and Diane for refering me to the team. As of Monday, I will be a Diamond.  I am hoping I will get back into my groove with the added competition.  It worked before! *Crossing fingers it works again*

Have a good day buddies.

Tasha

Well for a while now I have been going back to the basics.  Doing the things I did last year to lose weight.  The things may seem small and silly but they seem to help me.  Last year I would workout in the evenings on the days my hubby worked and the days he was off, I would workout in the mornings.  After about 6 months of that, I got tired of the eveining workouts and decided to only do morning workouts.  That meant having to drag the kids with me.  I would be in a hurry everyday.  KIDS, GET UP! GET DRESSED! EAT! BRUSH TEETH! POTTY!!!!  Ok, let’s get to the YMCA so mommy has at least an hour to an hour and a half to workout before the child watch closes. Yeah, they have crappy hours!

Anyway, the point I am trying to make is that I HATE being rushed. I have gone back to my old schedule or the evening workouts 2-3 nights a week and the rest are mornings when the hubby is home.  I am thinking of going back to what I did before in all areas.  I was competitive while I was with my team.  I am thinking I might just try it again. Uh oh, that means I have to get my scale out of the trunk! EEEK!

Oh well, I have to do what I have to do. I need to get going again and STAY going!

So, any takers?  Anyone want to have me as part of your team? Maybe I will seek you out!  Anyway, have a great night buddyslimmers!

So, I feel like I am finally back on track. I feel like my mind is where it needs to be.  Diane and I started this couch to 5k thing. My mind wasn’t really in it when we first started so I am starting over with it. I am back on week 1.  I am feeling good about it though.  I have never been much of a runner ever.  A few months ago was the first time I really worked on running.  I had gotten up to running a mile and a half straight through.  I know, not much but to me that was a success. Like I said, I have NEVER been a runner.   I started slacking and now I am starting over with the running. I am not going to kill myself trying to run a certain distance. Instead, I think this couch to 5k thing will help me out alot. I am looking forward to this process. The program takes 9 weeks and by the end of it, you should be able to run a 5k.  Thanks for asking me to do this Diane.  Looking forward to the next 9 weeks.

Anyway, I just wanted to write about this. I am feeling better than I have in a long time.  I am ready to get back to the me that is fit, strong, and happy.  I know, I always go through these ups and downs but I just have to remember how I feel right now when I start to feel a funk coming on.

I hope you are all doing well.  Smile and just remember that we are worth it!

Tasha

Good morning buddies.  Hope today finds you all well.

I feel very energetic today.  I feel excited to be getting back on track.  It is no fun to be in a funk and be lazy and that is what I have been doing for too long. 

Anyway, this time around Iam not going to focus so much on the scale.  In the past, I let that damn thing determine my moods…….and if it didn’t show me what I wanted it to, SELF SABOTAGE here I come.  I am just going to do what I need to do and not stress about the scale.  I have been told by so many people that I need to get rid of the scale. I had always thought that I needed it to measure how well I was doing in regards to eating right and exercise. NOT ANYMORE!  I had my hubby lock it up in the trunk of his car.  I am not giving up the scale forever but I only want to weigh myself once a month.

Not having it to stare at in the bathroom will make it alot easier. I won’t see it and won’t be tempted to get on it.  Seems kinda silly but I think alot of you know what I mean.  The scale can rule our moods and I am trying to avoid that this time around.  As long as I am doing what I need to do to be healthy, then it shouldn’t matter what a stupid scale says.

Hope today is a good one for you all!

Tasha

Hello Buddyslimmers.  I am sure some of you remember me.  I had cancelled my account a few months ago. I was just going through some rough times and when I get emotional I tend to think I can do things on my own, without support or encouragement.  I was wrong.  I need all of those things to keep going.  I am here to get back on the right track and to STAY there. 

I apologize to my close buddies if you feel I had abandoned you.  That was not my intent.  Sometimes life just happens and gets in the way.  I just want to say thank you to Diane.   You have been here for me the entire time and I thank you.   I didn’t do what we we had set out to do this week. (Well, we were suppose to start this week)  I am getting my head back in the right place and I PROMISE to myself that I am starting anew with the exercise next week.  I know, I know why not start today?  Like I said, I am preparing my brain for this. I have totally been a slacker on exercise for at least the past 3 weeks. Food had been about the same way.

At any rate, I am back and ready to get going again!